On Scars
(Scarecrow's Version)
B. M. Will
Scars
A young boy
once pointed to the raised lines
littered across my arm and asked:
What are those?
I lied.
I told him it was a tally
of all the men I’ve killed.
He looked at me all wide eyed
and asked further:
were they bad people?
I smiled
like it was all some kind of joke.
As if paying blood
to depression was funny.
I nodded to him.
I said: the worst kind of people.
When he asked for further details,
I ranted off—in perfect timing—that I
could not say more
because it was between me,
the current director of the CIA,
the head of the former soviet union,
God, and my real father.
I spoke so fluently,
that if I didn’t know better,
I would have sworn I rehearsed
the exact conversation
in the mirror before he even asked me
the first question.
Lying about my pain
is just that easy.