On Scars
(Scarecrow's Version)
B. M. Will
Something Scary
I turned myself into a scarecrow.
Because I needed to be something,
scarier than the parasites
that fed on my happiness..
The lines up and down my arm,
on my thighs,
traced across my stomach,
horizontal on my wrist,
vertical on my shoulder,
these scars—
all became the seams
holding me together.
I told myself I had to be a monster.
I told myself it was the only
way I would make it to tomorrow.
I convinced everyone that I would
survive.
I was scary enough to win;
depression,
anxiety,
had nothin’ on me.
They were just crows,
feeding on happiness.
And I was the monster
scaring them away.
But a scarecrow,
is all smoke and mirrors.
And behind closed doors,
I tried to pay for my life
with blood.